I woke up different today. My eyes opened, and instantly i thought of working out. I thought about getting my 12kms in and taking on an extra workout early before my day went into full swing.
Yet another change was taking place in my life.
As I laced up my runners, I realized something. I’m not walking alone.
Since i began this journey I’ve try to include everyone. Pictures, blogs, twitter and facebook. I needed the company, i could not do this alone.
Sometimes I write my blog forgetting there are people who actually read it. Sometimes I forget that my words, although truthful in the moment, and honest and raw, could also hurt those walking along with me.
I forgot, that among all the social media, was one person that no matter the weather, no matter the time of day, or what mood i was in, was always there. Side by side step by step. Each kilometer, each rainstorm, each heat wave. One person was there.
My biggest support, and my constant cheerleader. My best friend, and the love of my life.
Most men say that they would walk to the ends of the earth for their wives, mine, actually is.
Every mood swing, every time i wanted to throw in the towel, he just walks along side me, with gentle words, reminding me that we were in this together. How could I forget that everything i do affects him.
When i asked him if he read my blog, he said “ofcourse I did, its hard to read” He talked to me about how far we have come, how many obstacles we have faced and come through. Always together. This was just one more obstacle we would get through. Together.
Why had I not seen it before? He was so right.
It isn’t about beating myself up about all the time i have wasted. Its about the fact that I am no longer wasting time.
It isn’t about allowing my diabetes to get out of control for years. It’s about taking control of my diabetes now, and for the years to come.
It’s not about dwelling in the past, its about diving into my future.
I’ve learned so much in the past 38 weeks.
So much has changed. But one thing stays constant.
I am so grateful he has chosen to walk life’s journey with me.